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I actually hung out with my brother the other day! For hours we sat by the pool and talked about movies music and people. It wasn't weird or strange or uncomfortable. and yesterday I had dinner with Tobin and Rachel and again held a long conversation with both of them. this may seem like a strange thing to be excited about but for me its a huge thing. I can't remember the last time I felt OK enough to talk to another person about anything for an extended period of time. I usually feel panicky and awkward and have to leave or get wasted if I want to stay. Also, I am making more phone calls rather than txting. I am not afraid to aswer the phone either, my heart doesn't race at the sound of my ringer. Another step in the right direction if you ask me.