Fear

So it's been a while since I posted something and things feel like they are spiraling out of control. I just left a message for my doctor to please change my medication as this one seems to do nothing but give me the negative side effects, my back constantly tingles like my skin has fallen asleep, my vision blurs from time to time, I am always slightly congested, my hands shake, my jaw clenches constantly and for the last two weeks I have been living in a constant state of fear. It took me a while to figure out the fear thing. It started with a metallic taste in my mouth, then my stomach got knotted, and now even the slightest things make my jump like a little girl. I constantly feel like I have to throw up and every time I hear voices outside I assume that they are talking about me. I spend most of my free time in my room watching hulu because I can't really do anything else.

Bless my doctor, before I even got time to finish this post she called me back and right now is on the phone with my pharmacy getting a new prescription filled and I can start it tomorrow.