Bfday

Today is my birthday. That's right the anniversary of my entrance into this world.
I have gotten so many txt messages from my friends that my phone almost died and is currently resting on the charger, gearing up for the night ahead. In about half an hour I am to meet up with them at the Hood. I am so anxious I feel sick. I know I should be happy and excited but my nerves are shot. I don't know why or what to do about it. I am not comfortable no matter how many times I change my clothes. Nothing fits right, nothing feels right. I want to go, I want to have fun but this feeling in my gut and the shaking of my hands makes it hard to get ready. Hard to take those first steps out the door. I have hung out with these people more times than I can count and trust them with my life but I can't even make it to the front door.